because we all need a little more room to love

i feel trapped in something i don't have words for. i want to squish mud between my toes, let my hair hang long and dip into paints while i cover pages with lines of all the contours i see in life. i want to spread purple where no purple should be and try to capture in an image what no words could possibly describe.

i wish i knew why you were staring at me, twisting around while water steadily dripped from the tip of my nose, finding replenishment from my soaked scalp.

i wish i knew why i couldn't meet your gaze.